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April 30th, 2005
01:13 am
they are playing head automatica on the edge right now crazy....i am so gooooood tonight at joe and sams i moved megans car down around the corner and she didnt even man good times hahahahaha
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April 29th, 2005
01:52 am - some text for your reading pleasure
THE DEEPEST LIE ARE WITHIN THE SOUL NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN BUT TO BE RELISHED AT EVERY UN TOLD TRUTH
TAKE COMMAND OF A SOUL THAT BELONGS TO A LIFELESS BODY AND LEAD IT INTO THE WHITEST LIGHT ONLY TO REVEAL IT TO BE FILLED WITH IMPURITIES
OH THE JOURNEYS YOU HAVE TRAVELED MY FRIEND THE WISDOM YOU HAVE GAINED THE KNOWLEDGE YOU HAVE SHARED OH THE REVEALATIONS TO COME
ENDLESS SILENCE THAT GOES ON FOREVER THAT CANT BE BROKEN
STOP AND GO LIFE CONTROLLED BY AN ANGRY OLD MAN
IF I PREFERRED THE COMPANY OF OTHERS WOULD YOU BE MAD
SITTING ALONE IN THE DARKNESS WITH JUST MY THOUGHTS AND A BLANK PEICE OF CANVAS TO PAINT YOU A PRETTY PICTURE
WISHFUL THINKING GETS YOU NO WHERE
THOSE DISTANT BLUE EYES STARING BACK AT ME
THE TRUTHS CAN BE SEEN IN YOUR DISMAL LIES
I NEVER INTENDED TO HURT YOU
MY WALLS ARE BLANK WITH EMOTION UNSEEN COVERED WITH POSTERS AND CANCEROUS LIES SO NOONE CAN FEEL THEM BUT ME
THE OUTCOME UNKNOWN IF I WILL SUCCEED
WHAT LIES IN THE DARKNESS BEHIND THE DOOR A BRIGHT VISION OF THE BEGINNING
WHEN ELEPAHNT HUNTERS HUNT ELEPHANTS THEY RIDE ELEPHANTS.SO WHY DONT THEY HUNE THE ELEPHANTS THEY ARE RIDING?
LIFE IS A GAME OF TWISTER SPINNING WILDLY OUT OF CONTROL
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April 28th, 2005
07:40 pm
to right the wrongs i have committed over my entire life would take a long time to correct.....i am sorry for those of you that i have ever offended, hurt, or been mean to....the truth lies hidden in a perspective i do not see or know yet.....mistakes are mistakes and lets leave it at that.....i feel right now that i am nothing but a pawn in someone elses chess game.....
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/faces-animated/25.gif) depressed
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April 27th, 2005
11:14 am - skin and all those crazy things you like
my skin is starting to fall off....pretty soon i will be inside out boy and evryone will scream like little girls and run away...how sad...oh well...raccoons could be fun to play with but they enjoy bitings fingers off......i get my braces off tomorrow at 1 20 for those of you that wanted to know....i have a job interveiw today.....and remember kids if you going to do drugs do them with supervision of an adult ME!!!!!!!
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April 20th, 2005
09:10 am - youve lost your way and look how sad i shat on a turtle
k i just got back from cleaning turtle of my pants man what a bitch............... the old man said two take a left a right then follow it up with a smack in the face and i was like Whaaaaaaa!.....never follow a curved road to far.......only eat chocolate in wyoming when its raining......never allow your country to be overrun by a circus it will end up just like the soviet union.....a mirror is just another dimension just dont let the mirror people escape and cause havoc
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April 19th, 2005
09:57 am
is 2 Pac alive i think no......who would believe that. what do you do when all you think about is the tiny little questions everybody has....try and answer them all or just ignore them....i smell marijuana hahahah and no its not coming from me......if a squirrel had 4 legs how fast would it run or how many marbles does it take to sink a battleship.....who knows i dont......my skin itches
Current Mood: ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/charitycam/faces-animated/13.gif) bored
Current Music: underoath
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August 22nd, 2004
04:38 pm - tactics of the lost and confused
would it be worth to change the way i live for one person
what would i be getting in return
i dont like the way i live thats just who i am
some of the things i do dont do anything for me anymore
so i have quit
she wants me to be better
her parental advisors do not want her to be with me because i am a bad influence
i try to be good
i really do just somethings i dont feel like doing
i dont want to be a part of any religion right now
but she says that is the only way for us to be together
i feel that i am not good enough and i should let her find someone that is
but i love her more than anything is love worth this much
how do we know what the future has in store for us
Current Music: thursday- full collapse
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July 18th, 2004
10:10 am
untold truths that have been told
all trust gone in a untrustful world
allworldy possesions must be sold
to get back to the roots
to the beginning
when everything was right
everything was fine
when i was perfect
before i was alone
back before i was untrusted
now i sit and ponder bout the untold truths to be told
and how it affects me and those around
i do not mean to hurt you
i do as i please
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July 16th, 2004
06:31 am
my mind is like a blank canvas so paint a pretty picture
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July 6th, 2004
04:00 pm
preset buttons on the remote control of our lives........
(please finish)
Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Atreyu
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June 24th, 2004
10:57 pm
its hard to deal with change
when people change for better or for worse it is especially hard
sometimes you dont like the change but you just ahve to deal with it
somepeople have a hard time dealing with it and wish they would just go back to
normal
sometimes change requires hanging out with other people
but in doing that could cause mayhem with other people
you just ahve to decide
that choice is hard
but is always better to stand by that persons side
and support any choice they choose
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10:56 pm
Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
You know I just closed my eyes
My whole world disappeared
Father of mine
Take me back to the day
When I was still your golden boy
Back before you went away
I remember blue skies
Walking the block
I loved it when you held me high
I loved to hear you talk
You would take me to the movie
You would take me to the beach
You would take me to a place inside
That is so hard to reach
Father of mine
Tell me where did you go
You had the world inside your hand
But you did not seem to know
Father of mine
Tell me what do you see
When you look back at your wasted life
And you don’t see me
I was ten years old
Doing all that I could
It wasn’t easy for me
To be a scared white boy
In a black neighborhood
Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
With a five dollar bill
I never understood you then
And I guess I never will
Daddy gave me a name
My dad he gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Daddy gave me a name
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
I just closed my eyes
And the world disappeared
Father of mine
Tell me how do you sleep
With the children you abandoned
And the wife I saw you beat
I will never be safe
I will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
I will always be lame
Now I’m a grown man
With a child of my own
And I swear I’m not going to let her know
All the pain I have known
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My dad gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
Then he walked away
Then he walked away
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10:42 pm
standing in the field alone with just my glove and my thoughts
i remember the days before you left
when i would sit and watch you play
yelling when you came to bat and hugging you after the game
i guess that meant nothing to you
then you decided to give up on everyone including me
i dint understand why
it didnt make much sense
you used to know me so well
now so many years have passed you dont even know me at all
its like we are strangers that knew each other in a distant past
the feelings that i have for you are nothing but hate
you left me all alone
in life to debate
at times i have pondered
what it would be like today
if you had just stayed
things might of worked out
my life is different now
you are no where in site
i have gotten wiser and wont play your games
you wonder why we dont talk
or even hang out
you are the person that i dont wanna become
you are most of my problems
you made me what i am
you are my dad
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06:48 pm
waiting for you to show
but i wait no more
walk to the phone to make a call
phone makes no sound
you have left me all alone
why have you done this again
the reasons are are all fake
i see right through your lies
just tell me the truth
so it hurts so much less
after all we did
you left things unsaid
the confusion it made
i walk to the door
not a word said
i leave you a note
it read" i wish i were dead"
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June 22nd, 2004
11:21 pm
standing on this window sill
looking for my lost or stolen dreams
remebering the days of old when everything was golden
now things are tarnished and not what they seem
everything has changed and not for the better
they keep getting worse
only i can make them better not you or me but i
the rain is falling harder images start to change
my intellect decives me
telling me lies
i try to stop the voices
but all they do is cry
the victims of my doings
all cry out in pain
some of them do it inside
some of them do it out
but all of them cry in pain
when ever i shout
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June 17th, 2004
10:44 pm
the truth is behind a foggy mirror
as hard as i may clean
the mirror never gets clearer
all i see is the lies that i am living
but i cant live the truth as hard as i try
dont know how dont know why but i am still the one giving
all they do is take
never give back in return
but i am the one in concern
for now i see why the mirror is foggy
i can stop living the lies and strat living the truth
the mirror is getting clearer
a foriegn face staring back
makes no saense should be me
i start to doubt
the mirror starts to become unclear once again
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June 15th, 2004
03:58 am
these pills that i have taken
have not effected the truth
i can see right through my own lies and deciet
i want to believe what i am saying
but it is so hard when noone else believes
sometimes the truth is hidden
sometimes it is out in the open you just have to open up your eyes and see
its not always that easy
but just that hard
maybe if all was good everything would be simple
but the questions keep getting harder
and the answeres further and further away
just an outstretched hand away
but will i grab it or just keep falling into this darkness i call nothing
standing all alone with friends at your side
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03:54 am
life is so confusing. one minute you like someone then the next yuor liking someone else but the person you liked before has just now started to like you and you still like that person but you have started to pursue other love interests. what do i do i like both but i have to chose only one.
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June 5th, 2004
03:40 am - sales of yards and garages and purposes of people
why do people put signs out for garage sales and or yard sales when they arent even selling their garage or yards....what if i was in the market for buying a garage or yard would they sell it to me probally not...so that is the stupidest idea i have ever heard....come on people get with the program....
lets start with everybody serves a purpose in life....k.....except it.....now if everybody serves a purpose how do they know what that purpose is what if your not meant to serve a purpose.....what happens to people after they serve their purpose do they die or keep on ling a non purposeful life......what happens to the people that die befor ehteir purpose is filled.....or what happens to the people that just dont have a purpose......cause everybody serves apurpose.....i widh i knew what my purpose was......
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June 4th, 2004
10:41 pm - butterflies and moths
i never knew that moths could fly so fast......today at work i was washing a green truck and i saw a yellow3 moth his name was speedy the yellow moth.....he was the fastest moth in the entire world......i think the scientific name for it was speedificus mothicus......but any ways it landed on my finger then flew at super high speeds until he disappeared.......
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